Tomorrow is Mother's Day. My first Mother's Day as your mom.
I've been trying to think back on my life before you, but it seems nearly impossible. You have changed my world since the first dream I had of you. Becoming your mother has been the best choice I have ever made.
You are already growing far too fast. I find myself trying to remember what you looked like in my arms when you were only 6 pounds. Now, as you continue to outgrow your clothes, I try to find ways to embed your size into my memory.
You have become quite the goofy soul I had always imagined you would be. You spin in circles in your basinet, and some mornings I even wake up to you lounging with your feet on the rails and smiling at the wall. You babble continuously, hardly giving me a chance to respond.
Tiny girl - I hope you stay this innocent for the longest time. I hope as you grow we continue to bond and grow together. Each change you have made over these last few months has a special place in my heart, and I'm sure it always will. I promise to be your biggest fan and always be proud of you. I will be here to listen to your problems, no matter how small. I will show you the world and teach you how to nurture it. Together, as a family, I promise we will go on several memorable adventures. But mostly I vow to love you unconditionally and be both your mother and friend.
You have taught me patience and given me the push I needed to chase my dreams. You have shown me what pure happiness feels like. You taught me to live life as my full self without any apologies. You have gifted me a new meaning to the word "confidence". You landed in my path and pointed me in the direction I needed to go forward. You took my womanhood to a whole different level and made me feel like a goddess who has been blessed to walk this path beside you.
Right now the world is certainly not how I imagined it would be after birth. I pictured our home full of visitors - lots of time with your grandparents and aunts and uncles. However, instead, you are simply stuck with your parents. I was planning to return to work part-time, but that has been put on hold. I'm both saddened and grateful for this time I have been spending with you. I wish the rest of your family could see how much you are changing every day, but I am grateful for the amount of bonding time we have been given.
I can't wait to celebrate with you tomorrow. Thank you for choosing me to be your mother. I love you.
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